Family of Four No More

Well what a crazy couple of weeks we have had. The last couple of years have been rocky but things are finally looking up. Travis and I have been trying for a long time to have another baby. We have also suffered the loss of two precious babies the most recent this past March. A few weeks ago at church during a special prayer time I prayed and asked the Lord to send us a sign as to whether or not we could have anymore children. I know that sometimes the answer is no but I would rather be told no than continue to get my hopes up and then just wait to see if we would be blessed with another child only to be disappointed again. These are the events that happened over the next week.

Monday: Woke up sick and thought that I had a stomach virus Matthew had been sick with.

Tuesday: Leann asked me to hold her baby dolls that she named Makenzie and Makayla. This may not seem like a big deal but when I was pregnant months before Travis and I had decided that if that baby was a girl her name would be either Makenzie or Makayla and nobody knew that. Our children didn't even know that I had been pregnant in March. I was shocked and asked Leann where she got the names for the baby dolls and she told me she just made them up.

Wednesday: Still sick and while taking Matthew to science camp there were a few songs that played on the radio that were making me emotional. Before a song began to play that hit me the hardest there was an interview with the person who wrote the song who explained that the song was written during a time that he and his wife had been trying to have a child and continued to suffer miscarriages and were finally blessed with a child. Took the first pregnancy test which was positive and I was shocked. I then made a doctor's appointment for the next day.

Thursday: Went to the doctor and that test was also positive and the doctor did blood work. Still in shock I began to panic that I would have another miscarriage.

Friday: Blood work came back and my numbers were very high and that was exciting but I was still scared even though all the signs had been sent to me during the week that should have been a comfort.

I have been extremely nervous until yesterday when I went to the doctor and had an ultrasound. It turns out I am further along than originally thought. I have to say that when I heard that precious baby's heartbeat I felt a calm through my body and of course I cried while looking at the image of my beautiful baby. We did tell the kids last night and they are both hoping for a girl and have named the baby Love Bug! I finally feel like everything will be okay.