Which way do I go?

I guess this is going to be first actual post about something. I have had a rough week and there is are some issues weighing on my heart. So, I thought I will blog about it as a way to vent. I have been in college working towards being a teacher for several years now. I was originally scheduled to do my student teaching this fall. Actually I was suppose to start on Wednesday. I have been really excited and looking forward to this. However, there were some things that happened over the summer and as a result I received an email last night telling me that I am most likely not going to be able to student teach this semester. As a result graduation will also be pushed back a semester. The past 24 hours have been a roller coaster of emotions. I have been angry, frustrated, disappointed. One minute I am crying and the next I am okay. I did not get much sleep last night. I have prayed a lot over the past several hours. Here is my thing I am a control freak. I know that I am and I am okay with that. What I am having a hard time with. I know that my creator knows everything that is going to happen in my life. I would just really appreciate an outline or something. Why is it so hard to turn it all over to God? I know that God has a plan for me. Last night I finally decided to take a step back and try to give it all to God. I woke up this morning and left for school. I did not really talk to Travis about anything that was going on until I completed the exams I had this morning. It was the strangest thing. I woke up with this strange feeling in the pit of my stomach. As I drove to school a peace came over me like nothing I have ever felt before. I keep getting this feeling like someone is telling me over and over the timing is not right for what you are wanting to do. I have been so upset about not being able to student teach but now I think I am okay with it. I keep feeling like I am being told to be patient, not yet, and I have a feeling in my gut like there is something else in store for me that is going to need my attention more. When I left school I called Travis to tell him I was on my way home. He asked how my test went. Before I could tell him anything about the feelings I was having he said I have this strange feeling that the timing is not right for you to do student teaching. He said something does not feel right about it. I then proceeded to tell him about the feelings I was having. I am in total shock. Some of the phrases he said about what he felt he was being told were the exact things I was feeling. While I was on the phone with him I just lost it. How is it that he had no idea about me staying up and turning it all over to God, the feelings I was having, any of it. I had not told him any of it. Yet, he was getting the same answers I am getting. How AWESOME is my God? I am not sure what is in store for my future right now because there are a lot of things going on. I can say though that I am excited to see what God has in store for me. There are a few ideas that I have been throwing around in my head for a while now and maybe one of those ideas is what I am supposed to be pursuing. I know this is a lot of rambling but I needed to try and get this off my chest.