Well I am starting to relax a little more with our little Love Bug now that we have made it to 13 weeks, and I am starting to outgrow most of my clothes. There are still times that I start to panic that maybe something is wrong with the baby but it it is not taking Travis as long to get me settled down now. I have also started to feel guilt for being pregnant which is a little strange. I feel guilty when I am walking through a store now that I am starting to show a little because I know that pain of seeing a pregnant woman when children have been taken from you. It is very painful and brings back up the emotions of losing a child to begin with. I do not want to hurt anyone or cause anyone pain, but I am very thankful and blessed to be carrying this child. We are due at the end of February which is going to be interesting since this is a leap year. We are taking this pregnancy one day at a time and hoping for the best.
Mr. L
12 years ago
it's so thoughtful of you to think of women that have lost babies--it's funny how we don't think of those things until we've been through them ourselves, and then we are hyper aware. It is getting easier for me, but when I had to go to the OBGYN, and could hear the heartbeat monitors from different rooms, it killed me, because I remember wanting to hear that sound more than anything in the world. Anyway--I hope we are blessed like you and Travis with a little one very soon. Thank you for always being honest on here--it's nice
ReplyDeleteCan't wait until a few more weeks and then we'll know if it's a pink or blue "love bug"!
ReplyDeleteJennifer, thank you for this post. I love it!
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